Everytime I think I have things all figured out….
Nik has been having a lot of “behaviors” lately. That is the ABA euphemism for tantrums/acting out/defiance/non-compliance. Its hard to pinpoint the reasons for this, but my gut feeling is that this is his “terrible twos” coming into play. Like I have said before, he is running about 1.5 yrs behind his peers, so this fits that timeline.
But his preschool teacher is having a particularly hard time with this, expecially because she is so regimented, and likes to have everything just so, and all her kids are model children… and poor Nik just doesn’t fit in anymore, with his “behaviors”.
So I am looking for another setting. Does he need strict schedules? Structured activities? Freedom to find himself? Flexible expectations with directed play? Montessori? Waldorf? Multi-disciplinary?
I am going nuts. My own issue is that I can see pros and cons to everything. I vacillate. I vacillate very well.
I have to make sure that he does not get overwhelmed by all the different programs. As I was telling Pete, he’s only 3.5 yrs old. I don’t want him to get burned out so young, and hate school/instruction/direction, etc. So I have to find the right balance of school, therapies, and fun.
And when it comes to making a decision for my son, I am a wreck, because I want to be sure that he gets the best place possible for him, but then we should also be able to afford it, and so on and so on. And then add in the school district and special ed depts and their input, and you can see why I am slowly being driven to drink.
This is bringing me to my knees.
I have appointments with 4 different preschools over the next few days. I’ve already looked at two.
I just want him to be happy.
But also get what ever early intervention he needs/deserves.
And I have to keep my personal prejudices out of it.
Round, like the circles that you find, in the windmills of my mind.
