My raison d’être


A former city girl, now suburban mom living in Northern California with an eight year old boy with PDD-NOS, a six year old neurotypical girl, and one psychotic labradoodle.  A hobby-turned-business keeps my creative juices flowing and I may one day be able to give it the attention it deserves.  But right now, I have a fulfilling career and I’ve resigned myself to obtaining a CPA license after two decades of denying the inevitable.  That requires a lot of accounting classes (it has been a long time since I’ve been in school!)

My life is full, and it is not easy.

I have wished for some of the events in my life to have had different results or not happened at all.  I think about the forks in the roads I’ve traveled, all the choices I’ve made, and I wonder what may have been.  I have wasted years of my life living in regret.  But as a wise wizard would say, “So do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us.”

It is a struggle to live each day with purpose.  But if I don’t, that way lies madness.

And I’ve already been there.

And it was not good.

Go here to see why I started this blog.


Update May 6, 2013:

And as I go back and read that kick-off post, all those years ago, I realize that I am The Hare.  While this blog started out as a way to document my life as a parent of a child with autism, it has morphed over the years into a map of my emotional wanderings.  And I am just as much in need of the support and trust as my son is, if not more so.  Because while I was focused on him, following rabbit holes and dead ends, I lost my way.

And while I know that I will get to a finish line, being newly aware and conscious of my journey will help ensure that I get to the finish line I am aiming for.

And as I said before, so many years ago, I will bring you along on the journey.


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16 thoughts on “My raison d’être

  1. Thanks for stopping by my blog and leaving the link to the artisit who did the same banner as my blog. It was very well done. Good Luck with your new business and the best placement for you son.

  2. Just stumbled upon ur blog through the mad momma’s.

    And I have read every single post. In one go!

    Its a great blog, ur kids are adorable…Wish you all the best!!!

  3. Just came across your blog through the mad momma’s like Chandni did… and like her read through all your posts in one go… I was moved so much by your writing and by your wonderful kids… Do keep going!

  4. I just came across your blog. I was absolutely surprised and here’s why: I have 2 kids boy almost 4 (PDD-NOS and a june b’day), girl (NT) 1.5; and live in the bayarea. Went through all your archives and can relate to most of what you’ve said.

    Send me an email if you’d like to connect.

  5. I just came across your blog. It was great reading it. I still have more to read but need to rest before my almost 4yr old wakes up . Your kids are adorable!!

  6. Hey, your kiddo in the pic is looking ‘straight to me’. Does he like me too the way I like him? 🙂 he he. Kidding.
    Anyways, dropped by your blog read a bit and must say its a Lovely site to hang on, b’coz it gives a fresh feeling.
    Keep it up.

  7. Hello, I was searching around for tiffin sites and I noticed this comment from you a couple of years ago, “Boy did that picture bring back memories of school! I had a tiffin box just like that (we all did…in Bombay, that is!)” I just wanted to let you know that I have a small website where we sell tiffins and other lunch items that help reduce our plastic dependency. Thank you.

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